Everything Starts Where It Ends.

As 2009 comes to a close. So will this blog.

I will be continuing posts in separate blogs for each era of music I go through, by album or by release...etc. Capturing all the happenings under that timeline.

I will keep this blog here as a memory to be revisited, to remind myself of where I came from.

With a new year comes a new start. I hope to see any old readers on the otherside.

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It's All That You Wish You Were, But Darling You Are Not.

Wondering if this is it.

Or if this is just another step to completing this album. I'm just wondering how much i'll have to bleed for it, before it becomes a reality.

I've been pondering whether it's all worth it or not.


It is, don't worry.

Sometimes it just feels so distant.


I've got a song, it's been in my head, i'm singing it to myself. Is that a good sign?

I've got a few.

I hope that's good.

It's late, too late. I've been so used to sleeping early that being up this late should seem like a bad sign, but it doesn't feel like one. Even though i'm struggling to keep my eyes open and i'm starting to feel ill, I feel excited.

Ambition, children. Fight for your goals, they will come.

I feel a shift. November, lets get it done.

I want my plane ticket. Let's stop sleeping to dream.

We've Been Running Circles, Like Rats In A Maze

Inspiration is a tricky thing, it's something that comes and goes throughout the year.

Motivation how ever is something that's pretty painful to lose, it's happened a few times. Now being one of those times.

It's putting a huge gap in my work, and I hate it. But lack of motivation leads to lack of inspiration, thus making it impossible to do almost anything, the only way I've found to get it back is to just be patient and wait for the answer to come. Try not to search to frantically, it doesn't help.

I've got a few songs on hold, some good ones, potentially. I'm hoping when Halloween is past and November hits, things will be back on track. Halloween tied with new years for my least favorite holiday, so that might be part of it.

My pop song now has lyrics, sans a few lines, so it's almost done. And I still need to record one guitar part, which I plan on doing when I'm finished here. I think the reason I haven't been working on this song as much as I should though is because I'm stumped as to what to do after....Time to find out, I don't want to become a coward.

Like Clockwork, We Begin

Had another phone call with Daniel today.

Got a few things sorted, sort of.
Which is nice, sort of.

Things are being pushed back again, but it's bringing relief to both of us I think.

I had/have a lot of unfinished ideas that show no sign of being less scattered as soon as I'd hoped, especially with the stress of having them done in a months time, so that's taken care of now.

Now to just keep on rolling along, hopefully with some peace in my head things will come quickly and I'll have some fantastic songs to show when it's all said and done.

I can't wait til I have some fans who care to read this blog, right now it's just a good personal outlet I believe.

I'm feeling a change in myself, ever so slowly.

This project is growing up, it's been a part of many chapters of my life, it's created many chapters within itself, I feel like I've left 2 albums in the past, 2 massive changing points in my life that have been a part of this album. I've written and erased dozens of songs to get to where I am today, and it's still changing. I'm looking forward to the day where I can press stop, and let this series of events, this album, float into the past.

I wonder how insignificant it will look as a piece of music, then again...none of these words are supposed to justify the quality of the music.
This is just how it is.

This very long step in getting to where I want to be, to start my life...is slowly coming to a close.

And the gates will open into the unknown.
It's about time.

No matter what happens to me and my career as a musician, no matter how well or poorly this album does, I want to remember how I got here, and who helped and guided me along the way, because this album is in fact a product of my imagination, but it has only become a reality because of the people involved in my personal and musical life. Their believe and excitement in their desire to see what I can create is what is most inspiring.

The fact that they believe in what I could create in the near or distant future is what I want to remember.

And I only hope one day, I can pass what has been given to me, to my own family and friends, and someone who needs it.

Everybody needs something to believe in.